As this year has come to a close, I've thought a lot about where I am in life and how my life possibly could be different. A few weeks ago in Relief Society, the sister teaching the lesson posed the question "What if you got what you wanted when you were twelve or fifteen? How would your life be different?" I thought about it; it took me a sec to remember what I was even doing in my life at that time. I can wholeheartedly say I am a happier person then I was at twelve. I know there were many things I wanted at a young age that kind of turned me into a selfish person. And if I didn't get them, I was grumpy. It happened a lot. I would get jealous of what people had and how many friends they had. I wanted to have attention! But I realize now, no one wants to give a grumpy person attention.
My attitude entirely changed when I moved away from home. (My home life didn't push me into a grumpy attitude, it was my own choosing). When I moved away, I had to depend on myself to get an education, make new friends, and do well in my job. It was hard because I had to come out of my shell a lot. And it was very rewarding! I had a change of mind and heart. I was able to rely on the Spirit better, and love more deeply.
And today, I am grateful everyday that I had a change of attitude. I know I would be far off if I hadn't. And interestingly enough, I have everything I have ever wanted so far in life right now. I have a wonderful family that I talk to literally everyday. I was able to serve a mission and meet people that loved me and I loved them. I have been able to work and go to school, pursuing an education that is challenging and rewarding. I have many wonderful friends who support me and help me grow.
As I reflect, I think of the song "Never Enough" from The Greatest Showman. It represents a moment where you are in a relationship. Nothing compares to this relationship, not even all the stars in the night sky! This relationship is everything you have and it is the best thing in your life! This relationship can represent anything in your life. I take it as that nothing compares to the true happiness we can have in our lives. No gold or spotlights will ever represent the worth of my happiness. My happiness comes from my testimony in Jesus Christ, my family, and the experiences I have.
2 Nephi 5:27 "And it came to pass that we lived after the manner of happiness"
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